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[21 Oct 2008|02:41pm] |
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So, I'm writing in this again. I'm at Ivette's house listening to this catchy fag song. :P
It's so addicting, but ridiculously funny. I started out hating it, but now I just have to listen to it at least 20 times in a row.
Anyway, Obama is speaking today in Downtown Miami.
I'm obviously going. I'm like..one of the biggest Obama supporters ever. I really hope he wins, I couldn't stand having another republican in office.
Bush ruined this country. Say what you want, my opinion won't change.
Chris. Oh man, another Justin. I feel it..I think I'm falling for him.
He's so sweet and perfect? But flawed.
I love it. I absolutely adore it.
Just my luck, he lives a state away..
So yeah, sing to me like a shining star..but I'd rather do you on the backseat of my car. ;D
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[12 May 2008|12:26pm] |
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Wow, it has been a while since I've posted in this. I've been wanting to write a lot lately, and I completely forgot about Livejournal, lol.
Well, everything is pretty bad, I guess. My mom has a job finally, and I have one, but there's something missing.
I think it's quite obvious what that "something" is. Justin.
I'd give anything to talk to him again, and I hate it. I just want to completely forget about every memory I ever made with him.
I want to make it all disappear. It's so hard, this "love" thing, it's beautiful when shared by two people, but when one of those people suddenly decides that they can't do it anymore, so abruptly, it turns into the worst feeling ever.
I still love you, but you choose to push me away...why? It was three years, three years...so it could turn into this?
You pretend you don't even know me, act like I don't exist.
I hate you for doing this to me, I hate you so much.
But I would take you back in an instant if you told me you still wanted me.
I am pathetic.
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| Sooo uh, school? |
[28 Aug 2007|11:12pm] |
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I can't decide on whether I hate it or like it. xD I hate the getting up early part, but I like the fact that I'm going better than I ever have..
I also hate the getting a lot of fucking work part. :@
What the hell, do they WANT us to be stressed the fuck out this year??
God.
:(
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[29 Jun 2007|10:30pm] |
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If anyone knows how to make layouts on this thing..
Please help. :(
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| One time, at band camp.. |
[23 May 2007|11:52pm] |
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:D:D:D I get to join marching band!!!!2wk4;lgh
My teacher says by doing that i'll get much better at the flute.
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I shall be in Concert Band next year.
I'm sooooo fucking excited.
CANNOTWAITLAWLZ
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| would you hold my hand if I saw you in heaven? |
[15 May 2007|06:59pm] |
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My grandpa died today.
I was in the room with him, my mom and my grandma..
One minute he was alive..the next he was gone..
My grandpa is gone. :'(
8/24/1912 - 5/15/2007 <33 rest well, papi.
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| okay wtf, seriously? |
[14 May 2007|11:02pm] |
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Someone needs to help me make my livejournal look purdy. :(
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| I love my friends. :) |
[01 May 2007|01:09pm] |
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I seem to always look past the people who care about me to worry about other shit.
But all my friends are amazing. They're the reason i've been so happy in school lately. :D
P.S. I miss Justin. :((((
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| I just might be the luckiest girl ever.. |
[17 Apr 2007|01:02pm] |
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I love him more than ANYTHING.
And he loves me, too. How did I get to be so fucking lucky? The most amazing guy i've ever known loves me back...yes, I am lucky, even if he does live far away.
I feel stupid for never actually realising it because of my stupid insecurities..always thinking I couldn't possibly be good enough for love. But I feel better about myself now. :)
Anyway..
So 8 more days 'til my birthday, not as excited as I thought I might have been. I wish he could be here on my birthday, it'd be so much better. :(
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| Maybe things will finally get better? |
[23 Mar 2007|11:50pm] |
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I got to choose my classes for next year, and my counselor says i'm passing. :) My grades aren't the best, i'm not a straight A student, but hell..I'm passing. It may be with a fucking D, but I don't care. I get to be an 11th grader. ^_^
I chose Drama, Italian, Instrument Ensemble, and Creative Photography. Plus I get to have Algebra 2, English 3, Physical Science and American History.
I feel so proud of myself. :)))
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| School sucks? Yes, it does. :D |
[20 Mar 2007|01:06pm] |
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I hate it, but my grades came out better than I thought they'd be. Turns out I might not be failing after all. :)
I got mostly C's, an A in band (of course) and two D's, one in computer shit, and the other in guitar.
Yeah, guitar.
I guess i've lost my will to play it when I started playing flute.
I feel slightly guilty about it, but I don't really let it bother me much.
I quit my job, cause it's extremely gay. Making us get up at 4 in the morning on weekends, fuck that. >;o
I'm just going to wait until i'm 16 to get a real, and BETTER job.
Maybe at Publix or Blockbuster or something like that.
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| So from God came all things under the sun, and to God return when the race is won |
[11 Mar 2007|03:21pm] |
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I went to visit my grandpa yesterday, not expect how horrible he was going to look. He honestly looks like he's not going to last any longer... I shouldn't think negatively, but he's 94, he's had two strokes that were just a few months apart, i'm just thinking realistically..
He's been the strongest man i've known, despite his age he would always try to do anything to make me happy, and I never even had to ask. Now he's in a nursing home, slowly slipping away and I can't do anything at all to save him. I've never lost anyone close to me to death, so i'm scared of how much it'll hurt when it really does happen..
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| Dead Eyes See No Future.. |
[09 Mar 2007|05:50pm] |
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I hate my family. They're all two-faced and inconsiderate. My mom treats my grandma like shit, my grandma thinks its just fine to spend the money my father sends me on something else, when I need it for my cell phone. My aunt just doesn't care anymore, and wants to move away. My dad couldn't care less, sure he sends me money, but not enough to help with food, clothes and such. My mom thinks its her right to take most of my money and buy her stupid cigarettes, and then when she asks if I could give her a few dollars I give her a look, and she storms out of Walgreens like an 8 year old who's mother won't buy him candy. She is the most immature 53 year old I have ever known, (well...the only 53 year old i've ever known..). But that's beside the point. It really isn't fair that the money I make, that I want to spend on some new clothes, has to go to her. "But I do all the cleaning, and laundry, and blah blah blah blah" Yeah? Well do you ever ask for my help? AM I EVER AROUND ANYMORE NOW THAT I HAVE A JOB? No. So stop your fucking whining, and be glad that you don't have to worry about school, or bills, or your non-existent job, or your grades, what college you're going to be going to, or even what you want to do with your life. So fuck off with your bullshit that YOU do EVERYTHING around here. Thanks.
End rant.
So I was interviewed for AOHT (Academy of Hospitality and Tourism) if you don't know what it is already, look it up. I don't really feel like going over it. I was a bit nervous, but the girl who interviewed me was extremely nice. :) She made me feel comfortable.
On with the boy rant. I'm torn between Justin and Esteban....I love Justin a lot, I really do..but lately i've been realizing how shitty he's treated me. He usually acts like he doesn't care at all, and ugh... But Esteban either does like me and is way too shy to tell me, or even ask me out, or he just acts extremely nice. =/ I hate boys. Why can't they have cooties again. >;[
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| Fuck bagels. |
[08 Mar 2007|07:25pm] |
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I was supposed to get paid today, but my stupid boss came up with some bullshit reason why he couldn't pay me today, so I have to wait until tomorrow.
Because of this, I can't go see the bodies exhibit. :[
Still haven't found anyone to help with the HTML, either. Boooo. :[
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